While We Wait

 

Everyday of my life I think one thing, the well being of my family and how are they going to make it without me. Everyday I pray that nothing bad will happen to them. Also I pray that everyday that they come to know Jesus and that I can be with them in heaven.

 

God allows bad things to happen in our lives to make sure we know we are walking in the right path. Allow horrible things that can scare you and make you wish to take them all away, but all of these come with the grace of God and the promise they He will never leave us or forsake us. Yes, in times of trials it seems like God has left the building, that’s what I thought happened. But while I am crying I hear His tender whisper of love that He is with me. And true enough, I opened my Bible and started reading the scriptures, almost all that I read at that time was the assurance that my faith isn’t just for show. He is telling me that there is a test of faith and this is it. Comes with the test is the blessing of His presence, His comfort, His strength and His love. He never left.. I seek Him and I found Him.. He is with me all along, He had to wake me up on my long lost sleep to realize what really is important.

 

Everyday that my brother was in jail for a crime he did not commit and was framed for it together with a friend he was with. My mom bleeding and needed a biopsy, she was bleeding while on menopause, they saw a suspicious lung density and slight enlargement of the heart. I thought my world fell apart; two of the people I love most was going through rough times. Therefore I cry for them. I was financially, emotionally, and physically exhausted. All I did was cry, kneel and pray. I even quoted scriptures were he saved many people in the bible, His promises, His love for His people. I even questioned if I am one of them. So the harder the situation the harder I pray, the louder I praise.

 

Every time I think of crying for my family, I will hear a His voice so loud “wait”.. I will never forget because He never left. When I am about to breakdown and cry I hear the word wait over and over again. He made sure He was not misunderstood, He made sure that I know that breakthrough was coming and that I just have to wait. And so I did. After almost three weeks of my brother in jail, he was released and also a new person. A person with compassion and love for others other than himself, he found Jesus in jail. We met a person from my church back home in the Philippines who is in jail ministry and he is guiding my brother and helping us reach many to help the people in jail. All things said, we are being called for this ministry to help the inmates to get the spiritual well being and the proper physical care that they need. God allowed my brother to experience what they are going through to make sure my brother never forgets how it is inside. We are being called to this ministry and we will continue to do it for as long as we can.

 

My mom’s health concerns were called “minor” by the doctor she is seeing and now she is healing slowly, also during the time while my brother was in jail she called me and cannot sleep crying. I was able to pray with her, we never did that.. not even once in our lives, and now she is on her way to a good health, good faith and is now quitting smoking.

 

My sister who was not always with us reconnected and took care of everything, I am thankful for the pain because we have been brought closer together and able to strengthen our sibling bond. God made sure she was on the right place at the right time when this happened, especially during this COVID time in the Philippines there are certain border that people cannot cross. He made sure that my brother was well taken care of, unharmed and not starving.

 

It is painful while we go through these times but all I could say is that these are the best times that I ever spent with God. Most of us fail to realize that the pain and suffering are often blessing that is about to come. He is calling us for the greater good and we are made for so much more… to give purpose, to give meaning to our lives and mostly, to advance His kingdom. The battle isn’t over because my brother needs to through a trial, but God already assured me that everything is over and we have already won. The fear and uncertainty is all gone because God is with us always..