Pinay's Pensieve

  11Then God said, “Let the land produce vegetation: seed-bearing plants and trees on the land that bear fruit with seed in it, according to their various kinds.” And it was so. 12The land produced vegetation: plants bearing seed according to their kinds and trees bearing fruit with seed in it according to their kinds. And God saw that it was good. 13And there was evening, and there was morning—the third day. I have not been a gardener till the start of year 2020 when the pandemic hits I started loving plants. I do not know about you but to me planting is an art, it is a miracle to me how plants grow. When I plant something in the pot and inside my house it is outside the natural habitat I had to make sure that the lighting, the watering and the soil is right for the plant otherwise it will not thrive and more likely die. It takes great deal of research and effort and focus to make a plant thrive. Often than not we don’t realize that God only just utter the words to make everythi...

  For the longest time I always think that I am not worthy of God’s love time or even attention because I am a sinful person. Then Jesus came and made sure that God isn’t misunderstood, Jesus made sure we truly know the heart of God. Because as years passed by the word of God was polluted by the Pharisees, there are many additions to which God never impose.   They have become some contaminated and not pure because of the people wants us to go in the religious sector. Know the truth and the truth will set you free, the devil wants to disable us and hold us back and make us believe that God will never help us, that we are nothing to pay attention to because we are sinners. The god of this world wants us to believe the lie, that way we can never testify about God’s love. Just a couple of months ago I was led to believe that God exited the building. That my life didn’t matter because I am a sinner, and mind you I have been a Christian for as long as a I can imagine. Yet I believ...

  Everyday of my life I think one thing, the well being of my family and how are they going to make it without me. Everyday I pray that nothing bad will happen to them. Also I pray that everyday that they come to know Jesus and that I can be with them in heaven.   God allows bad things to happen in our lives to make sure we know we are walking in the right path. Allow horrible things that can scare you and make you wish to take them all away, but all of these come with the grace of God and the promise they He will never leave us or forsake us. Yes, in times of trials it seems like God has left the building, that’s what I thought happened. But while I am crying I hear His tender whisper of love that He is with me. And true enough, I opened my Bible and started reading the scriptures, almost all that I read at that time was the assurance that my faith isn’t just for show. He is telling me that there is a test of faith and this is it. Comes with the test is the blessing of Hi...

I have been reading the Bible for most of my life but I have never really paid attention to the very beginning of everything.. This I decided to really dissect what God made each day and how it really began. We always fail to notice how great the God we serve, how amazing His power that He made every living thing perfect. So I am studying the " First Day" , as described in the book of Genesis. Here, God on at the very beginning told us how He created everything.  GENESIS 1 The Beginning 1 In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth.  2 Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters. 3 And God said, “ Let there be light ,” and there was light.  4 God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness.  5 God called the light “day,” and the darkness he called “night.” And there was evening, and there was morning— the first day. Yes, He created by mere ...

  These past few months my world has been turned upside down in ways I cannot fathom. I am a creature of habit, everything has a place, and every task is a routine everyday. I write down everything down to the very last detail so I won’t forget. For the past almost 10 years I only have one employer not by choice but because I was terrified with change, but God has a different plan. I took a job from a respectable and known employer in cable industry, good benefits and higher paying job. Little did I know I was not meant to stay, the company didn’t train people and only give you the bare minimum of information to perform the job. That being said I left and I am now jobless. Although I have tons of job offers probably more than a jobless person could hope for, I am still left at a lost. God showed me his plan, his plan for me not to get comfortable. I ventured out of my comfort zone and take a turn on my career path, from a customer service desk job to 8 hours a day on your feet job....

Today I realize about all of life's huzzle and buzzle that I need not to forget myself. Sometimes I get so worke up on thinking about today's schedule and making everything fit in one day. I had everything organized down to the very minute of getting out the car and travel. After everything is said and done today, I felt so much anxiety realizing that I have to work tomorrow at my new job. I was not looking forward to showing up and learning everything. So much is going on that I literally forgot who I am, that I am a person and not everything I do on weekdays needed to be done. I forgot the things I enjoy the most, nothing being selfish to the loveones I have responsibility on. But I get so worked up that I dont realize the rest day should be a day of rest and not working every minute of it and try to catch up because I only have 24 hours in a day.  Today, I turned on my computer and plug the mic in and sing till I no longer can. It really did helped me relieve some of the str...

    Many people do not know that I myself battled COVID -19; I tested positive November 26, 2020 (Thanksgiving Day). Some experience no symptoms at all, some is more severe and some like me mild at the very least that’s where I will put my category considering there has been many deaths because of this virus. The very first day, I knew I had it was when I cannot stop coughing I have asthma all my life but even my inhaler cannot shake it off. November 24 th at night I scheduled a COVID-19 testing but by that time I am experiencing chills already. I knew I had it before the result was released to me, the moment it was confirmed I went and locked myself in the bedroom for 12 days not 10 days like CDC required, I wanted to make sure that I won’t pass it to my husband or my dog. I had to make the sacrifice of not being able to see, touch, hug and kiss them. It's only 12 days but being stuck in a room almost felt like forever.   For the first week the symptoms aren’t a...